Sorry...
Not much today...
Bye...
Quite sad today...
I miss Will...
People 'bullied' me...
They scolded me
vulgarities...
for nothing...
I've been tolerating them for
1 year...
And...
they just keep continuing
to tease me...
Are they mature?
Its a sin to say vulgarities to people...
Oh God...
can you help me???
God says that must love each other...
I'm so tired of being bullied...
I keep telling myself to forgive and forget...
yet they keep hurting me...
I've been independent...
for Primary 1 till now...
This occurs when I was young...
I was being bullied...
I wanted...I really wanted...
to be a happy girl...
with no worries at all...
I don't care I had many friends or not...
I just wanted to be me....
Why can't they be more open minded and easy going?
I've found out...
Singaporeans and Cacausians are totally different...
really...
Cacausians are more friendly and open minded...
They really treat their friends really welll...
like Elisa ,Shelby,Michelle,William,Anna,Skandar and Georgie...
I did not say this because of I like William...
I'm not biased...
I watch the 'bloopers' and the behind the scenes when they are fliming Narnia...
They treated each other as part of their family...
I really hope someone could did that to me too...
In Singapore,
if you walk outside the school with a guy,
people would think both of you are dating...
But it is not!
What if they are just friends?
If I treat Chuwen Fu or Mao Sheng even Brian well,
they will think I like them...
or we're dating...
then,
Lots of rumours will come spreading out as LIES!!!
But...
I'm still must praise God...
He gave me my beloved parents...
who loves me more than anything...
and those friends who support me and be with me when I was being bullied...
and Will...
My friends are mostly guys...
and people may call me a flirt...
but I'm not...
let me tell you why...
I've a few friends...
Xin En,Xin Yi,Kristine(girls),Chuwen Fu,Brian,Wilson,Mao ShengJulien(guys)
are my only friends in school...
you know why?
Cause I've no friends...
They are the only people who can feel my feelings....
my thoughts...
They gave me moral support...
I'm only myself when I was with them...
Although I did not meet Elisa,Shelby,Michelle and Adel
face to face...
but I believe they mean no harm...
I can say...
they are much more better than my classmates...
Can they feel what I feel?
NO!
They just having fun...
I look stupid in school being bullied by them...
I don't ask to be popular...
I just want to lead a happy teenage life
so I can remember forever...
No one wanted to remember unhappy things...
I did not cry out...
cause I'm not weak...
I wish God will forgive them...
and I hope they will not do the same thing to the other people...
They are just having fun on me...
By the way, I've got the 4th highest in my class for Chinese...
And I pass my Science...
I did quite well on Design and Technology...
I'm going to take back my Literature test tomorrow...
Quite Nervous...
I feel alot better now...
Stay happy!!!
God bless all of you...
William rocks!

~GBU~

Christina:)